His response both brought relief and caught her off guard. It was so much not what she had expected, and now she felt even more stupid for not trying everything at once to find him. Didn't she know better by now? Didn't she know there wasn't anyone on this planet trusting more in her, in her decisions, her choices, fighting more for her life as much as for her soul than this man?

"I'm sorry."

She let go off him gently, both because her shoulder was really being a bitch by now and to look at him, carefully take his face between her hands. His cheeks were damp and rough from salt and that damn scruff but his eyes were the same. Deep, gentle, intelligent and right now so much full of emotion he couldn't hide.

"It's all gone. We've got no ground to stand on anymore. And it was me who pulled the trigger. I figured, you..."

She shrugged, helplessly. Obviously she had never been more wrong.